another trigger...

Today my dad and I set up the air conditioner in my room so I get to have some cool air, not just by fans.  My kids leave tomorrow for 2 months.  I am already feeling it for sure.  I've been an emotional wreck all day, doesn't help that I started yesterday either.  With everything going on I've been crying off and on all day.  Just want to bury myself under some blankets and not come out.  They fly out around noon and won't be back til August 1st or so, seems so far out.  Hopefully I can get some crap together by then such as figuring out school and what my plan is for the future.  I am so stressed out and more and more my mind keeps wondering back to him.  I need to find something more productive with my time.....