Another Thing I will Never Have
Another Thing John and I will never have---A wedding for our Josh. Yesterday we attended my cousin Michael daughter's wedding. She was a beautiful bride. As I sitting there listening to the vows all I could think about was that Josh would never get to say them words. Never get to see his bride walk down the aisle. Michael has never had a relationship with Barbara Carol. She was raise by her mama and Michael was to much into his own thing drinking and etc. Now he sees his beautiful Barbara Carol and wishes he had been more apart of her life. My response to him was IT IS NOT TOO LATE. It's too late for John and I. We can't go back. But you, Michael, can try to be there. Pick up the phone and call her. Let her know you are there for her and you love her. I heard him three times last night tell her he loved her. I am hoping they do become closer. Today I have been up seen 6 putting the finishing touch on Josh's Christmas Tree for him. I am going to my mama's so we can work on his flowers. Then John and I will be off to visit our Josh leave his tree and flowers. We will go by the adopt away signs and hang wreaths for him. All this I do for my Josh.
Dear Josh,
20 Days will be 5 years.....................................
Just know that I love you and miss you deeply.
Dear Josh,
20 Days will be 5 years.....................................
Just know that I love you and miss you deeply.
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I love your journal of hope and memories and encouragement for those who are getting what could be when we can not have it, being with our child. You give hope to us for the future. Love the idea of the wreaths. I am off to the cemetary today with Bills wreath. Wishing you a blessed Christmas filled with all the sweet memories. love and hugs Lynette
Kudos to you and John,,,you got yourself to that wedding...I do not know if I could do that,,I counld not go to my nieces college recital. those trees for JOsh must be made out of love....((hugs))
So understanding all you feel... Feeling it with you darlin. I love you and am so proud of you. In ALL you do, you teach love!
Holding you so closely in my heart dearest Rhonda. Those words you spoke to Michael are ones spoken in love and with the knowledge that it is never too late. You are so right on that one and what a gift you have given...
I\'ll be thinking of you today as you honor Josh in all the beautiful ways that you do.
Love in abundance and the tightest of (((hugs)))
Joanie
Oh Rhonda, it is so true. It is not too late for Michael and his daughter. I do hope he develops a relationship with her. You honor precious Josh in so many ways. He is proud of his mom and dad. Love, Linda
hugs...love you and john...and josh too...thinking of you
It is soo hard...the things our boys will not do...and we see the lives of others going on \"normally\". I guess this is the way it will be forever for us. I think it is wonderful that you encouraged your cousin...and you are so right...there still IS a chance for him...bless you for doing this. Your words probably gave him the courage to speak those words. Love you sweet one...
We all look for those things that our loved one will never see/do/experience... although my jenn did marry and have children,she did not get to see her daughter get married, will not experience her grandchldren...
Lots of love and big hugs to you...Lynn
Rhonda, I understand how hard it is, knowing we will never see our boys get married or have any grandbabies...The only thing we can do is do what you have already done, letting Michael know, it is never to late for him. He shall always hold on to those words, thanks to you and Josh he may have a 2nd chance to improve his life...You are so sweet my friend, I miss you & love you, Kelly
I\'m right there with you, we will never get to show photos of our kids wedding or grandchildren. You were very brave for going. And you are right it\'s not to late for Michael to have a relationship with his daughter. My brother doesn\'t have much of one with his daughter. Take care, Angela
My heart is with you as you put up Josh\'s tree and wreath and remember him always through the loving tributes you create in his honor. As for hindsight...we always would have done something differently...but as you say...there is still time for Michael. I wish the best for him. I don\'t think we should waste our times on regret and yet it comes creeping in like fog...to smother us when we least expect it....I know Josh does not have to put up with disappointing relationships and failed marriages like Brandon did. He and Brandon are a peace in a whole new relationship with God. love, dale..brandon\'s mom
Your words touch my heart. Wishing you joy as you honor Josh in so many loving ways! Amber
Hugging you tight, dear Rhonda. I feel the pain in this journal entry. This is such a rough time for us.
Thinking of you guys so much. Right beside you, praying you feel my love and hugs! Lynette