Another slap in the face

every time I think I can handle things.....my  asshole of a husband proves me wrong...Its 6:00am and he decided it was alright not to bother comeing home after he left with buddies at 4:00pm yesterday.As much as I didnt want to call and bitch I did anyways...Of course he is so loaded he wont even remember me calling and as usual he has no idea why I am pissed because he isnt doin anything wrong ,,hell no he NEVER does...He just doesnt deserve this home I have worked so hard for or his family..I have been up all night ,but thats nothing new either,sleep just doesnt come easy for me anymore....I am not a bit tired only my heart and soul are heavy and tired of the fight..Someday I so want to be loved and understood...My old saying is I WILL BE HAPPY IN MY NEXT LIFE......I believe as soon as my kids leave for school so will i ,even if I have to sit alone in a parking lot its better than sit here like a fool......

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Hi Tammy, I am sorry that you are going through this. Please know that I care a whole lot about you and I wish you did not have to go through this. I hope you will feel better. Much love and hugs.
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I too don\'t sleep. I was up till almost 10:30 this morning and slet until 3pm. I usually do not go to slee until the kids are in school. I wish I could find a normal sleeping cycle. I sometimes thik I slep during the day sothat I won\'t be lonely. Then when I get up it is almost time for the kids to come home from scool and my husband to come home from work. I don\'t have internet at hom right now. I wish I did so we could talk more. Take care. (((HUGGS)))