Another slap in the face

every time I think I can handle things.....my  asshole of a husband proves me wrong...Its 6:00am and he decided it was alright not to bother comeing home after he left with buddies at 4:00pm yesterday.As much as I didnt want to call and bitch I did anyways...Of course he is so loaded he wont even remember me calling and as usual he has no idea why I am pissed because he isnt doin anything wrong ,,hell no he NEVER does...He just doesnt deserve this home I have worked so hard for or his family..I have been up all night ,but thats nothing new either,sleep just doesnt come easy for me anymore....I am not a bit tired only my heart and soul are heavy and tired of the fight..Someday I so want to be loved and understood...My old saying is I WILL BE HAPPY IN MY NEXT LIFE......I believe as soon as my kids leave for school so will i ,even if I have to sit alone in a parking lot its better than sit here like a fool......