Another Missed Monday
I meant to journal yesterday but didn't get a chance.
The funeral on Saturday was touching. Bertha was from a family of 12 so there was a whole church full of people; the majority were relatives. I knew many of them so felt comfortable at the reception following. Actually I ended up helping in the kitchen so felt good that I could participate.
We then headed for Edmonton and visited with our son and DIL which was great. We also popped in to see Susan, Joe's sister. She is suffering from terminal Cancer. She has a hospital bed in her living room so that she can see outside, watch the big TV and be with Ed, her husband as he does the cooking etc. She is off chemo now (it didn't work and made her dreadfully ill). She seems accepting of things and talked freely about the disease. I am humbled by how serene she is. Ed said she is not in pain but very very tired. We were discussing something and she said "Ed, you need to see to that for when I'm not here". I had a lump in my throat.
We came home yesterday.
So I am thankful that Susan is at peace with the situation; that the funeral went well; that I could help with the funeral; and today, that I am home because the temperature is -32 Celcius (-26 Fahrenheit). The view out my dining room window is hazy with steam and smoke rising from the chimneys. Our condo is on the 6th floor at the top of the bluff. I am inside, cozy and warm!
My cherished Lisa: I miss you always and love you forever.
The funeral on Saturday was touching. Bertha was from a family of 12 so there was a whole church full of people; the majority were relatives. I knew many of them so felt comfortable at the reception following. Actually I ended up helping in the kitchen so felt good that I could participate.
We then headed for Edmonton and visited with our son and DIL which was great. We also popped in to see Susan, Joe's sister. She is suffering from terminal Cancer. She has a hospital bed in her living room so that she can see outside, watch the big TV and be with Ed, her husband as he does the cooking etc. She is off chemo now (it didn't work and made her dreadfully ill). She seems accepting of things and talked freely about the disease. I am humbled by how serene she is. Ed said she is not in pain but very very tired. We were discussing something and she said "Ed, you need to see to that for when I'm not here". I had a lump in my throat.
We came home yesterday.
So I am thankful that Susan is at peace with the situation; that the funeral went well; that I could help with the funeral; and today, that I am home because the temperature is -32 Celcius (-26 Fahrenheit). The view out my dining room window is hazy with steam and smoke rising from the chimneys. Our condo is on the 6th floor at the top of the bluff. I am inside, cozy and warm!
My cherished Lisa: I miss you always and love you forever.
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Gentle ((hugs)) shared.
I like that you are \'cozy and warm!\' - I think of that and smile for you.
We reach 30 F at night here in Stockton, California and I feel chilly - wow, -26 super burrrrr.
There is not a moment that passes where I face this crisis now alone where don\'t long for my husband\'s love and protection. Oh how I miss him. But the loss of a child - that is a loss I can\'t get my mind fully around. My heart simply goes out to you and I\'m so very proud of how proactive you have been and even have found ways to turn the pain and negatives into positives in helping others. You are amazing!!!
:-) Patricia
My BIL was living with us while he was dieing from cancer and he too had a very serene feeling the last few months of his life. He died Oct 2010. I was surprised at what a peacefulness he had toward the end, he was not at all a religious person but he was a good man.
Today it is warm by us (currently 66 going up to 70F) but it will start getting cold again tonight. My old bones hurt in the cold so you can just keep it up there in Canada Marlene. Sending you love, Terry
I am glad you had a good visit with Susan, bittersweet although it must have been for you - it is a very hard road to watch some-one you care for battle that disease. That she is at peace is a blessing.
Yep, I too thought it was cold yesterday but 25F doesn\'t really cut it compared with you. I prob. would never leave that condo!!! Stay warm ~ Joannax
It\'s really important for people who are in that serene stage to have other calm loving people float in and out. It makes the day meaningful. What is life for if not to support each other. After seeing Andy pass, I am not afraid of my own death. I know that it is those still living who hurt.
Hugs and peaceful love,
Sarah
I remember a special aunt of mine that knew that she was not going to beat her cancer. When I went to visit her (actually the last time)...SHE made me feel okay about her passing...it was amazing...she really gifted me with this visit. Love and hugs...Karen
Your weekend feels like a gift in so many ways.
Stay cozy and warm and having that time with Susan... so very healing and necessary.
With love,
Joanie
I have always wondered in those days in the hospital when did Ken come to peace at knowing what was happening...I sorta think it was after the night he pulled me down to him and with pleading eyes begged me to take him home..Not too long after that he tried to get out of bed but couldn\'t because he was so weak...I don\'t know or maybe it was the last couple of weeks when we don\'t know where he was..sorta like asleep...no drugs being given..not in a coma...doctor\'s didn\'t know...where he was....was it then that maybe he met Jesus and made his choice to go on to his eternal home...only once did he open his eyes after that 2 weeks and it was Christmas Day and he seemed awake, aware an there was no doubt that I knew he was going to make it...five days later he left us...so I really don\'t know when the peace of knowing came but I think it does...Take care, Sandi