Another Long Day
It has been another long day. I'm doing my best to breathe and stay focused on positivity.
My feelings are hurt that after years of running around helping everyone, I am at rock bottom and completely alone. My kids have been doing their finals this week and even they are not around to bring cheer! I cannot give enough thanks to my friends here, all of you have shown more support and giving than my own family and friends that are here close.
I'm struggling with my smoking addiction because I can't afford to smoke and have had no choice but to just go cold turkey out of the blue. I'm trying to look at this in a positive light for my health and future finances. It is even harder when it wasn't really your choice to quit!
I received a Christmas card from my brother. I had hoped he had written, but he did not even address me at all. He sent a note with movie cards to my kids that he wouldn't be here for Christmas, but didn't want them to feel forgotten. It broke my heart, but at least he did this for the kids.
Love to you all here, you are so many times my sanity
My feelings are hurt that after years of running around helping everyone, I am at rock bottom and completely alone. My kids have been doing their finals this week and even they are not around to bring cheer! I cannot give enough thanks to my friends here, all of you have shown more support and giving than my own family and friends that are here close.
I'm struggling with my smoking addiction because I can't afford to smoke and have had no choice but to just go cold turkey out of the blue. I'm trying to look at this in a positive light for my health and future finances. It is even harder when it wasn't really your choice to quit!
I received a Christmas card from my brother. I had hoped he had written, but he did not even address me at all. He sent a note with movie cards to my kids that he wouldn't be here for Christmas, but didn't want them to feel forgotten. It broke my heart, but at least he did this for the kids.
Love to you all here, you are so many times my sanity
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Stay strong. You are a beautiful person that has helped so many on here with your words of wisdom, trials, honesty and strength. Know that no one knows what tomorrow brings and your situation will change. One thing I focus on when I feel I\'ve hit my bottom is writing a note of all the things I am thankful for. My faith, my health, my family.. start small and pretty soon I realize I have a lot to be thankful for. Hang in there.. know you have helped me with your kindness and words of wisdom!
aw Rani I am so sorry your family are hurting you
mine hurt me too often in similar ways I really dont know why we do it to each other
I wouldnt if sometimes people just think you are so strong and capable that maybe they think YOU dont need to be remembered...but fussed over because you are so together
its like your strength is your weakness....
love to you
i hate to see you hurting
maybe you could call your brother ? and just chat a bit to salve your heart a little xx