Another family death...

My great aunt passed away tuesday morning. Funeral friday again in west virginia
When doesit get better? When is it my turn to smile again? I keep losing people and have no one that I can just collapes on and rest. My baby bunny sugarsnow can't support my fat ass falling on him lol. He makes me smile. Hyper but I have a bigger void in me that his cuteness cant cure. Im so sad and angry and disapointed... and just tired.