Another entry about how things have left me feeling

I feel like I want to leave again and I'm not really wanted or anything because of what he said and made me do tonight during that little spat and then again I feel like if I do leave, I don't want to go through trying to get close to anyone else again either cause its a aste of time that I don't have much lleft of anyways. So I say to myself, why bother trying anymore. I almost don't feel like I can cry at all anymore to help me feel better. Its like I've cried it all completely out sometimes, why bother crying more about the same ole thing as always! Just a waste of time, nothing changes or ever will change either. I can't be happy and I can't be sad anymomre cause its just all a waste of time to me. This is BS!