Another Entry

Dear Kitty,          I'm not the happiest of bunnies. I've been moody for days, and I'm sorry to everyone who's had to deal with it or who I've taken it out on. At the moment, I'm absolutely shattered and very stressed - there's too much music on in the week, and too much work, and not enough time for me to just wind down for a minute or two. Every moment I'm not doing work or music, I'm either trying to sleep, with Freya, or sorting out how I'm going to fit in the next lot of work.          This week will be busy for me:Monday: Singing Lesson = 2:00 - 2:30             Symphony Orchestra = 5:00 - 6:30Tuesday: Schola Cantorum = 5:00 - 6:00Wednesday: Violin Lesson = 4:00 - 5:00(ish)                  Chapel Choir = 6:00 - 7:00Thursday: Piano Lesson = 11:15 - 11:45               House Trip = 4:00 - 11:30(ish)Friday: Chapel Choir = 6:00 - 7:00Sunday: Chapel = 9:30 - 11:00             Senior Strings Class = 11:15 - 12:15             Senior Classical Singing = 2:30 - 3:45             Senior Musical Theatre Singing = 4:00 - 5:00 (approx)Add to this all the practise, work and other things I have to fit in, and you have a fairly hectic week.       At the moment, it's really getting very difficult not to SH, and I'm struggling now. I miss people, people I haven't seen for ages, and it hurts when I think about them. If I'm not seeing people I miss, I'm surrounded by Kirkeby girls who either mock me or just ignore me - the ignoring is worse, because then they don't even acknowledge I'm there, or, if I am, they ask me to do something for them and then carry on ignoring me. As for how I'm feeling, the expression 'non dolet, Paete' does not apply.         Ignore me, Kitty. I'm focussing too much on the bad things and not on the good - I've got friends who are there for me, and they make me happy. But at the moment, I think I'd just like to be left alone for a few hours.I'll write when I'm being less of a misery.Yours,Francesca