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Dear Kitty, I'm not the happiest of bunnies. I've been moody for days, and I'm sorry to everyone who's had to deal with it or who I've taken it out on. At the moment, I'm absolutely shattered and very stressed - there's too much music on in the week, and too much work, and not enough time for me to just wind down for a minute or two. Every moment I'm not doing work or music, I'm either trying to sleep, with Freya, or sorting out how I'm going to fit in the next lot of work. This week will be busy for me:Monday: Singing Lesson = 2:00 - 2:30 Symphony Orchestra = 5:00 - 6:30Tuesday: Schola Cantorum = 5:00 - 6:00Wednesday: Violin Lesson = 4:00 - 5:00(ish) Chapel Choir = 6:00 - 7:00Thursday: Piano Lesson = 11:15 - 11:45 House Trip = 4:00 - 11:30(ish)Friday: Chapel Choir = 6:00 - 7:00Sunday: Chapel = 9:30 - 11:00 Senior Strings Class = 11:15 - 12:15 Senior Classical Singing = 2:30 - 3:45 Senior Musical Theatre Singing = 4:00 - 5:00 (approx)Add to this all the practise, work and other things I have to fit in, and you have a fairly hectic week. At the moment, it's really getting very difficult not to SH, and I'm struggling now. I miss people, people I haven't seen for ages, and it hurts when I think about them. If I'm not seeing people I miss, I'm surrounded by Kirkeby girls who either mock me or just ignore me - the ignoring is worse, because then they don't even acknowledge I'm there, or, if I am, they ask me to do something for them and then carry on ignoring me. As for how I'm feeling, the expression 'non dolet, Paete' does not apply. Ignore me, Kitty. I'm focussing too much on the bad things and not on the good - I've got friends who are there for me, and they make me happy. But at the moment, I think I'd just like to be left alone for a few hours.I'll write when I'm being less of a misery.Yours,Francesca
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keep with it, honestly ask yourself: \"what good would SH do for you?\" -- it\'s only going to make things worse. Think about it, it\'s a bit silly to hurt yourself because you\'re stressed. The last thing you want during a stressful time is searing pain! Just hang in there, and concentrate solely on what you\'re doing at the moment. If kirkeby don\'t want to talk to you, then don\'t grace them with your attention -- they\'re clearly too up their own arses to care. Only 1.5 years left at Oundle, hang in there!
xxx
Hey look, I\'m absolutely always here if you need me, I\'m sorry that everythings so hectic and that kirkeby seems to be so awful at the moment but try and run away from fighting bears? Want to finish off stardust at some poit whenever suits you? xxx
hey sweetie! If everything\'s a bit manic, why not try to cut back a bit? don\'t do anything you don\'t have to do, and if someone asks you for something you honestly don\'t HAVE to do it!!! Turn your phone off and put it away for a few days until you forget where it is-you\'ll find you have about an extra half an hour or so every day because your not busy chatting unnecessarily.. I know that sounds silly, but honestly, I do it occasionally when I can\'t cope.. I stole the idea from a book :D And in your free time, stop timetabling all the work you have to do (I KNOW you do it, Fran!) and try taking a nap or reading a really nice book.
Feel free to pop round any time you like and we can watch a movie or make cookies or something if you would like :)
xxxxxx