Another day one in the books

I've been thinking about a career redirection, Got into this one by accident, looking back,perhaps a bit naive and my victim fetish now says, against my will. My last career change was 17 years, my next planned career change will be retirement, in the single number of digits away. Tonight, my mind will go to work while I'm still in bed no longer sleeping. That is the start of the weekly struggle to remain calm while being candidly kind. 
For mental health survival, I have started meditating.  I missed one day last week, breaking a consecutive string that I would like to lengthen. 
Today, will be testy.  This is usually when the brilliant mind shuts down and booze brain takes over by finding excuses and rationalization.
Perhaps it is time to revisit the 12 steps.