Another day on the computer
Got up a little early today for some reason. got on the computer, and I had this message waiting. From some jerk that gets off sending people on here messages full of vulgarities, and just sick stuff. I laughed when I seen it. Then I went on the alcojolism discussion post, and seen the same person had responded to a post, with the same filthy words. i reported him right away, and hit the ignore button on their profile, because he sent another one to me in the meantime. Must have caught him just as he was getting started. Not many others seemed to notice. Pretty sick puppy tho. Getting up at 9am just to do that. Heyyy, there's hope for me yet. anyway, one of the group leaders contacted me about it. I forewarded her copies. Didn't see that profile on later, and they deleted his comments, which is good. that could have really upset some people. Don't understand that kind of hate, but then no one understood me either when I was very sick, and doing the things I did. You can't really ever understand fully a spiritual sickness. Only God can. Went to my meeting this morning. it was very nice out today. Warmer than yesterday. Tomorrow is supposed to get hotter. Jordie phoned me about some work in London, On, but I couldn't go. I was going to take the bus there, but the lady at that restaurant hasn't payed me yet. I phoned her, but she must have been busy or something. I didn't go with Cory to the meeting tonight, because he said the vehicle was already full. I was a little disapointed, but it wasn't the end of the world. I kept busy on the computer. Made a really nice resume for painting. I found this site that you download the kind of template for the resume you want, and then you just fill it in. Supposed to be easy, but took me a few hours I think. Not really computer swift, especially with those types of documents. Trying to get all the columns and stuff even and straight. Hit the wrong button a lot, and the stupid thing would end up somewhere totally differant on the page. Yea, I was swearing a few times, but I feel good that I done it. People charge forty, or fifty bucks to do that stuff. No, I ain't looking into that. I like painting. Yea, I'm feeling pretty good these days. Got my good self back. I like that. Such a big differance from when I drank. I'm hanging onto it this time. That's enough of that shit. If I drank now, I would just feel horible. i don't like people to know when I'm fucked up, and i would avoid all the people I love and care about. That would really be awfull, not to mention the mental, and emotional turmoil i would go through. In the last few weeks I've met a lot more people here on D.S. I think I have about ten more friends now. Really good people here. I look foreward to seeing their post and comments. I really think that when you get involved with D.S, along with the other things I'm doing for recovery, it really makes things that much better. I used to really get lonely most days, but I can't remember feeling really lonely the past few. That's great. Seemed to have lost my sexual desires too, which is great. All that seemed to do over the years was tease me, because I would never get none anyway. I was just joking really, but you know, it's really true. I'm alright with that tho. I'm sure something can be done if ever the time presents itself. Poor Jimmy my cat is driving me crazy with her cooing today. She's in heat, and she crawls on the carpet cooing. Gets on my computer desk, and rolls all over everything, knocking whatever on the floor. She got a little swat today when I was doing my resume. Hit some button, and fucked it up. Caught me at a tense moment, but I felt bad after and picked her up and hugged her. She's just so pathetic when she's in heat. Anyway, thank you so much Lord for this day. I really am feeling very happy. No desire to drink, not bothered at all by cravings, and involved with recovery, and just loving it. Thank you so much.