Another day goes by.

Another day down. Not sure how long it will take till I actually feel like I am healing. But I guess  it has only been a week since I found out of my husbands affair. He seems better, now that he don't have to keep his secret anymore but me, I am having a war in my mind. If only I could stop thinking about them and what they did together. Stop worrying if he wont be patient with me while I heal and just runs to her. I feel like my heart has been ripped out and I don't know if I can be fixed. Is it really me writing this.....I can't believe this is my story:( Tomorrow is my first day of counseling. I am nervous yet can't wait because I dont want to hurt anymore.