Another day goes by.
Another day down. Not sure how long it will take till I actually feel like I am healing. But I guess it has only been a week since I found out of my husbands affair. He seems better, now that he don't have to keep his secret anymore but me, I am having a war in my mind. If only I could stop thinking about them and what they did together. Stop worrying if he wont be patient with me while I heal and just runs to her. I feel like my heart has been ripped out and I don't know if I can be fixed. Is it really me writing this.....I can't believe this is my story:( Tomorrow is my first day of counseling. I am nervous yet can't wait because I dont want to hurt anymore.
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Counseling will be very helpful. Try to take care of yourself. Hugs
We all understand the emotions you are going through right no. This is a huge change in your life and recovery is going to take a long time and a lot of hard work. If you are going to rebuild then it will take a lot of work from both of you. Try just to get through the next few weeks. It is surreal and scary, but things do move on. Counselling will help, and so will coming here, sharing if you can and reading other peoples stories. There are people who have got through this and rebuilt their families.. They are real people who will give their time to help you through this.
Although life is changed, it goes on. If you can find strength, eventually the madness subsides, I promise.
You are doing a great thing by seeking couseling from the get go. I am on 5th month since I found out and it\'s still very difficult. I have been trying to rebuild and forgive and some days are good and some aren\'t. Every day it feels like a rollercoaster ride. However, I have seen people get through this and go on to have a happier and stronger marriage. Let\'s hope we have the same outcome. Hope your 1st counseling session helps ease the pain. I have to go myself but just haven\'t gotten around to it.
I do pray that we have the best outcome. I hope it is with my husband and with a fulfilling marriage for the both of us. I hope that your day goes well today ...Thank you:)