ANOTHER DAY - #11; WHEW
Somehow I remained GF today - - - -it was very tempting to go to the casino after work - here's why - my husband left on a business trip and I anticipated this weekend being tough. Sure enough - the urges started today. All of the thoughts and rationalizations... being lonely already thinking about the days ahead without my husband, my friend moving to Israel, needing to release stress from work, telling myself it's okay I'll be getting money tomorrow from a friend who's buying a golf club from me,,, it's fine - if I lose it I won't feel bad because it is gravy money, etc.. On and on my mind went - life's too short to deprive myself of what I like to do, I'm not getting any younger, etc. But - - - - - -what I'm happy about is that I RESISTED... I realize now that these excuses are just that - it is my gambler mind talking; lying to myself like I used to do all of the time. At least I recognized it this time . ;] :] On to Day 12! Like this little icon, I remain innocent. Thank God!
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YAAAAAY....you didn\'t listen to that lying voice that leads to destruction....love the way you recognized all the excuses and rationalizations....because all you need to do is think of what gambling really does to you. I have told myself life is too short to waste chained to a dang machine by the addiction...wasting my precious hours, money, the work I did to get the money....etc. I got to the point where there was no joy in it....I didn\'t get all that excited about winning, even large amounts...it was more just relief that I could play longer, like \"thank you, a measly bonus round....\"
So happy for you that you resisted....WTG!!!!!!
Hugs, Dianne
Thank you sooo much, Dianne.. You have just been a lifesaver on this site; I like that you put your picture on too, I think you make a stronger connection with people that way. I may try it too. Changing like this is so great when it\'s going in a positive direction. Thanks again,
smokeygirl
Congradulations Smokeygirl you faced your demons and managed to get through the day GF!!
You are strong and getting stronger...I love watching this happen! You are an inspiration to others struggling back onto their feet....so glad you are here and sharing this road with me and others....Dianne
YOU GO GIRL we are all in this together we need each others support to crush this addiction once and for all its nice having money in our pocket we deserve to be happy content and gfree stay strong