another boring night tonight...
Today has just been a very draining day. I went to see my children at my in laws house today. I really didn't want to, because of the past there. Everytime Sarah leaves me, she runs home and acts up. Then her parents chime in and make me feel like shit. then her mom says some crap that just confuses me so much more. She assured me, one food in front of the other, because I dont know what tomorrow brings. Does she know something I dont? Sarah has left me so many times, for dumb reasons, for good reasons, and just because, I just dont know anymore. I hate boring nights at work, because my brain just continues to run and I hate it. I keep thinking about Sarah and how much I miss her. how much she means to me. All of that stuff. god knows I am trying and accomplishing so much, but she doesn't. I feel that she doesn't love me and nevr has, because of all the times that she has left me before. I could never imagine leaving her if the situation were reversed. I truly and still believe that we are meant to be. I just want the chance to speak to her without any outside interference and her to listen to me. I'm trying...
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keep strong... working nights on your own will be when you feel like this. keep up the LC with Sarah.
We are all here for you.
i am sure we will all feel slightly better after christmas. i am positive we will
xxxxxx
my ex left me for a good reason once.. but i changed that overnight and got her back.. she has also left because she\'s fallen in love wth someone else, doesn;t love me, just because.. so i ended it and realised she is the one with the problem and the \"back and forth\" was basically her way of manipulating and controlling me.
no more.. there\'s the door.
I did love her and I have been in your shoes before.
Thing is.. i did change and my wife didn\'t.. whenI changed what she wanted me to there was always something else I was to blame for.
and when I was doing everything exceptionally well.. well then she just left because she felt like it.
so i\'m sorry you\'re hurting, but maybe the problem doesn\'t lie with you.
keep trying, keep fighting for her.
I wish my wife was able to change too.. but she refused to so it\'s over now.
all the best bud
I will not lose that hope. I love her so much, and realize that we are both to blame. I was not the best husband. But I want to be now. I hope that she sees that and wants to see it with me.