Another bad day :(

I am just not having a good  time lately.  I keep getting sick, everyday.  Making lunch for my sisters makes me sick,  I can't stand food.  Yet, I suddenly thought the other day..ooooh I want a cookie.  I think I'm going nuts.  Plus, my boyfriend may have had unpleasant  motives.   I think that he may have just been using me.  Why else would he wait to ask me out until right before he knew that he had to leave for boot camp.  I feel like such a fool.   I should have used my better judgment and not had sex with him.   Then I wouldn't be in such a bad place.  I feel so stupid.. I don't know what to do anymore.   I just wonder.. when did I loose all of my common sense??  And will I ever get it back??   I thought I was smarter than this, I thought I could say no when it wasn't right.  I was so wrong.  I should have said no.  I knew it was wrong, I knew it was not going to end well.  Yet, I still just gave in and let it happen.    I guess I thought that if I just did what he wanted he would stay with me.  Now I have no idea what is going on.  He might have just wanted sex, and I gave it to him.  What if I never see him again??   I sure hope that I am not pregnant, that would really suck.  I really don't know what I am going to do.

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79pounds
79pounds

look at it a different way. if you enjoyed the sex, then what difference does it make as far as seriousness goes as long as you didn\'t pick up a disease or something. if you have been seeing him a long time and then hadn\'t seen him for a while and having sex made it into something different, then that is a whole other thing.

i hope everything works out for you, and i hope you feel better. there is also a thing called \"the morning after pill\" you can probably still get one, it stops you from getting pregnant just in case, most rape crisas centers have them, so that would solve that dilemma but go get it right away, i think its just a 24 hour window on that.
crystalicbabe
crystalicbabe

we had been together for like 5 days.. I guess I just wasn\'t thinking.. It was kind of a .. well he\'s paying attention to me.. so why not..