Anniversary
Today marks the last day my husband and I had together. It was one year ago today that we spent our last day together. I remember it well. I usually work on Sunday, but on this particular day I decided to stay home. I started the day by visiting my father, taking over some Asian food. Around 6 in the evening I headed home. When I got there my husband was waiting for me and we went shopping for food. I especially remember the moment he came over with two large bags of chips, putting them in the cart. He was all smiles. After that we headed home.
Two hours later found us sitting on the sofa just talking. He told me that he'd never been so happy and that he felt like he was about to achieve everything he'd ever wanted. He'd just gotten his Financial Advisor license, something very few people achieve. Later he had a business meeting that was held in a conference call format. It took about an hour but he spent another 30 minutes talking to his business partner. Again he reiterated how happy he was(his partner told me this.) He came back out and we spent the rest of the evening watching television.
So, there it is, our last evening together. The aneurysm ruptured later the next day and that was it.
I'm reminded of something he said that Sunday night, about all the great things that were about to happen. Some would say that he didn't receive the great things, but I know better. He was right, for although his life was over on this planet, he achieved the greatest reward: Heaven. And so with this anniversary, I say to my husband: Thanks for giving me so many wonderful years. Thanks for putting up with me. Thanks for showing me Doctor Who, and Fraiser, and House. Thanks for giving me a daughter and grandkids, and a great son-in-law. Thanks for leaving me financially secure. Thanks for taking the dog out for a walk. Thanks for letting the bird chew on your hair. Thanks for smiles, and tears, and belly laughs. Thanks for the baby that's in Heaven.
And thanks for reminding me that God will never leave me.
Till we meet again.
Two hours later found us sitting on the sofa just talking. He told me that he'd never been so happy and that he felt like he was about to achieve everything he'd ever wanted. He'd just gotten his Financial Advisor license, something very few people achieve. Later he had a business meeting that was held in a conference call format. It took about an hour but he spent another 30 minutes talking to his business partner. Again he reiterated how happy he was(his partner told me this.) He came back out and we spent the rest of the evening watching television.
So, there it is, our last evening together. The aneurysm ruptured later the next day and that was it.
I'm reminded of something he said that Sunday night, about all the great things that were about to happen. Some would say that he didn't receive the great things, but I know better. He was right, for although his life was over on this planet, he achieved the greatest reward: Heaven. And so with this anniversary, I say to my husband: Thanks for giving me so many wonderful years. Thanks for putting up with me. Thanks for showing me Doctor Who, and Fraiser, and House. Thanks for giving me a daughter and grandkids, and a great son-in-law. Thanks for leaving me financially secure. Thanks for taking the dog out for a walk. Thanks for letting the bird chew on your hair. Thanks for smiles, and tears, and belly laughs. Thanks for the baby that's in Heaven.
And thanks for reminding me that God will never leave me.
Till we meet again.
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Thinking of you as you reflect back on this day. What a wonderful tribute to your husband. Hugs. Denise.
I am thinking about you right now and while I go about my day. I am so sorry that you lost your best friend, it seems like he was a wonderful man, how lucky you were. I am sorry
Thats a lovely tribute to your husband,thinking of you,sending you some peace.
Alice
Such a wonderful set of memories. I think that your husband was such a happy and content man. He was loved by those around him and a peace with himself. You seem to be a peace with yourself too.Thank you for sharing such special memories with us. Hugs Jane
So you are coming to the end of your \"year of firsts\"....I hope the second year is less painful for you. Be advised that there will still be \"firsts\" but for me they were easier than all the holidays and anniversaries and such.
I remember wondering if after the first year I would be \"done\" grieving, but I wasn\'t.
I do distinctly remember this past December (nearly three years out by that time) that I was finally OK! Oh yes I still miss him, usually every day. But I have happiness and joy and life is good. Is it different than it was? OH HECK YES, but it is good. I am ok alone, because I enjoy my own company. Do I get lonely,? Occasionally. but I am ok. Hope you are doing ok too, or soon will be.
You have been through and accomplished a lot in this year that passed...slowly by day but as you look back probably faster than you imagined. There is a different reflectiveness and grief on the other side of the first year mark. As you pass it the memories of that day and the days after refresh your grief but as grief has passed through the year so will this. My thoughts will be with you..
Bless you...Linda
Oh what wonderful things that you are thanksful for and blessed to have experienced each and everyone of them. You are blessed by God and one day you will see your husband, baby and everyone that you lost in heaven. What a homecoming that will be! From Diane B.
These days are the hardest..reflecting on our last days with our spouse. But thankful they were in our lives and not giving up a second of it ....like the song says...Yes my life, it\'s better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I\'d have had to miss the dance
And I am so glad I had the dance...Hugs, Ellen
Lovely memories that are yours alone to keep in your heart. Hope you find peace today and comfort in his happines..
Cindy xxoo
I\'m so glad you can reflect back on the last day. It\'s so wonderful for you to feel this way. Your post made me cry, but it\'s a good cry.
Paula
what a wonderful tribute, remembering is great but bittersweet...keeping you in my thoughts and prayers....hugs, Sandi
Lovely tribute, Tru. Wonderful memories too. Thinking of you.
Hugs, Joely
Tru I loved reading your journal, thanks for sharing with us. You are an amazing women to reflect so positively on such a difficult day. My prayers and thoughts are with you, hugs Lu Ann