Angry and Frusterated.

i am SO frusterated. i cant even eat now. im so scared to...this is so hard. my mom ordered a pizza last night because i wasnt about to touch that chicken again. and i ate a piece, but pretty much just the bread of it. when i woke up this morning i could feel i was hungry...but also scared to eat. so i made something ive always liked...frosted flakes. i ate maybe 5 small spoonfuls of it and had to stop because i was crying and freaked out. its horrible, crying every single bite i take, having a water and xanax right by me just in case. i cant live like this, and my baby is suffering from this i know! it feels so hopeless. i just keep thinking about last night. im going to call my doctor today and talk to them about it and see what they tell me to do and if they can help me.