And so it begins

Had our counseling session this morning. Today was individual sessions. The end result is that our therapist thinks that a full separation is necessary. He also said that the wife needs to end the affair as well. Clear heads are needed in order to determine which path we will eventually be going down. This news devastates me to no end. We've slept next to each other for 15 years, woken up next to each other, etc, etc. Mentally I'm not in a very good place. The anti depressants seem to help during the day however mornings and nights are still a bit rough. Losing weight again. Down 27lbs. The hopelessness continues to grow inside. I love her so much, I wish I knew what was going on inside her head. We didn't talk about anything yesterday and haven't discussed anything to this point today. I don't think either of know what to say or do.