And now for me
I keep thinking about what we could have done to save you baby. I tried to find the best doctors when your seizures were taking their toll on you. When I did, they put the VNS into your neck and it stopped the seizures that had ravaged your body for over 20 years. We thought that we would have a new lease on life. That we'd have so many years to share together and grow old. Enjoy the kids and grandkids together.
But the side affects of the VNS took their toll. Weight gain, heart issues, exhaustion, depression. And ultimately, your life.
Today, it hit me. Over the past few years while I was taking care of you, I let myself go. I have gained so much weight that I feel awful most of the time. My body hurts, the muscle and joints ache. I am sluggish. I have lost the energy that you use to tell me you loved. So, I called my Mom and we went to a meeting on weight loss and have signed up. Its time I take care of me now or I won't be around to watch the boys graduate from HS, College, marry, have kids, etc.
I know you would be proud of me baby. You never would have said a word about my gaining weight. You always told me you loved me the way I was and wouldn't change anything about me. But I know you would want me happy and healthy. So, I am not only doing this for me, but for you too. The countdown begins. I hope to have lost 15 lbs by my birthday in June. Wish me luck baby.
Love ya Jeffie.
But the side affects of the VNS took their toll. Weight gain, heart issues, exhaustion, depression. And ultimately, your life.
Today, it hit me. Over the past few years while I was taking care of you, I let myself go. I have gained so much weight that I feel awful most of the time. My body hurts, the muscle and joints ache. I am sluggish. I have lost the energy that you use to tell me you loved. So, I called my Mom and we went to a meeting on weight loss and have signed up. Its time I take care of me now or I won't be around to watch the boys graduate from HS, College, marry, have kids, etc.
I know you would be proud of me baby. You never would have said a word about my gaining weight. You always told me you loved me the way I was and wouldn't change anything about me. But I know you would want me happy and healthy. So, I am not only doing this for me, but for you too. The countdown begins. I hope to have lost 15 lbs by my birthday in June. Wish me luck baby.
Love ya Jeffie.
Replies