And Here's the Frustration

I was a little mean to Orange last night. In the middle of my frustration I broke down and said, "I don't want you." Of course I didn't mean it and I apologized soon after. I do want Orange just not now and not like this but I can't do anything to change any of it so I just need to go with the flow and not make Orange feel unwanted or unloved. The frustration is just piling up now. I'm not ready to tell anyone in real time about what's going on but I'm convinced I'm starting to show at least a little. My clothes don't fit the same anymore and this is only a little over a month along. By next month it won't be so easy to hide. I'm just not ready for any of it. 

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joneszy93
joneszy93

How far along are you? You\'re right, it\'s going to become more and more difficult to conceal your pregnancy. Is Orange usually supportive of you in general? Maybe start by sitting him down and talking to him before saying anything to anyone else in real time.
Desigol1979
Desigol1979

(((Iam)))
iam30113
iam30113

About 7 weeks. And orange is what I\'m calling the embryo. Beats saying it.
joneszy93
joneszy93

Ohhh ok, sorry. I totally misunderstood.
joneszy93
joneszy93

I think Orange is a cute for your embryo. How\'d you decide on that name?
iam30113
iam30113

I read somewhere that the embryo was the size of an orange seed around that time so... Lol