And, here I am.....
January 2, 2011: Mom passed away October 27, 2010. She was able to be at home, thanks to Hospice.
My "sister" has been a greedy, self-serving, B****! Karma will take care of that.
Poor Chris, my oldest son....his "girlfriend" left him on New Year's Eve. That is okay...she is not nice. The very hard/sad part is, she left with his daughter, my granddaughter, and she will not tell him where she is. It will all work out but my heart aches for my son!
My youngest son, Adam, is struggling with withdrawal from Cymbalta. DO NOT ever use this drug! (My opinion) I am worried about him. He struggles, so much, with depression. He, like me, has had so many losses the past 4 1/2 years. BIG losses. I can hardly stand it. I can't imagine being 23 and trying to deal with all this!
I am missing Scott, my mom, and so many others that have passed..... It is a daily struggle to keep on keeping on. One breath at a time....
I am not on this site very often, anymore. I just had to take a step away. It breaks my heart to see the sadness. However, I do "peek" at the heartaches.I want everyone reading this, to know, although I am not always "involved" in your lives, I do think about ALL of you and send peaceful wishes. My heart continues to ache and I know yours does, too.
I do hope, at some point, to become involved here, again. I think I just gave, and took, as much as I could for the time being. It is the same way with Compassionate Friends..... I can't even explain what the heck is going on with me.
In any case, I do want you all to know you are ALWAYS in my thoughts!
Peaceful Wishes!
My "sister" has been a greedy, self-serving, B****! Karma will take care of that.
Poor Chris, my oldest son....his "girlfriend" left him on New Year's Eve. That is okay...she is not nice. The very hard/sad part is, she left with his daughter, my granddaughter, and she will not tell him where she is. It will all work out but my heart aches for my son!
My youngest son, Adam, is struggling with withdrawal from Cymbalta. DO NOT ever use this drug! (My opinion) I am worried about him. He struggles, so much, with depression. He, like me, has had so many losses the past 4 1/2 years. BIG losses. I can hardly stand it. I can't imagine being 23 and trying to deal with all this!
I am missing Scott, my mom, and so many others that have passed..... It is a daily struggle to keep on keeping on. One breath at a time....
I am not on this site very often, anymore. I just had to take a step away. It breaks my heart to see the sadness. However, I do "peek" at the heartaches.I want everyone reading this, to know, although I am not always "involved" in your lives, I do think about ALL of you and send peaceful wishes. My heart continues to ache and I know yours does, too.
I do hope, at some point, to become involved here, again. I think I just gave, and took, as much as I could for the time being. It is the same way with Compassionate Friends..... I can't even explain what the heck is going on with me.
In any case, I do want you all to know you are ALWAYS in my thoughts!
Peaceful Wishes!
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So many huge life transitions and each of them so very challenging. I am glad that you are here and each of us continues to do what is right for us as individuals in this moment. I have found that there are \"seasons\" of grief and perhaps you are in one where the fields need to lay fallow for awhile? This is good that you understand what you need. When the well runs dry for me I cocoon and fill myself up. I find myself in this mode often and it\'s as it needs to be. So much understanding and healing moments filled with hope sent your way. I appreciated reading your journal today. Love and hugs, Joanie
Dear Ginger, I am so very sorry about your mom. I know you were a great comfort to her in her last days on this earth and now she will transition to be with God and Scott. I am sorry that your other sons are going through so much. As you said, for young men,they have had a lot of loss. Are you still in EMDR therapy?. I did it as well and for me, it helped to ease the questions, guilt, and trauma of Eddie\'s sudden passing. As far as when you come to this site do whatever works for you. It is good to hear from you and you are in my thoughts and prayers too. Have a peaceful New year and visit when you are able. I wish you love, peace, healing and hope in 2011. Love to you and precious Scott, Linda
Ginger, I am sorry about your Mom. I lost mine in Oct 25,2001. So I know the pain of lossing & lossing. I also had a sister that was a B---- too, but now she is gone and I can\'t say I miss her because she was a lot of trouble to the family. So sorry about your granddaughter..thtat is a hard one I don\'t know what I would do if I couldn\'t see my grandkids. I hope that Adam will be alright but I know with all the losses it might be hard. Keeping you & your family in my prayers and if you want messageme & I will give you my phone number and we can talk...Love & hugs, Connie
We all understand, you have to do what is right for you at this time of your life, we look foward to spending time with you when you are ready, for now , take care of yourself and all those you love, Love and Tight Hugs, Charlene, Mitchells mom
So good to hear from you. I think that each of us know that we must take care of ourselves...and if that means stepping away...then we need to...and that is okay. You come and peak whenever you want to and know that we will be here whenever you need u...love and hugs...Karen
Ginger, so very good to hear from you. I\'m so sorry for the challenges in your life. Regrettably we all have them and I understand the need to step away. I too had to step away to deal with some private issues. I try to stay in the loop but it is difficult. However, it is so nice to log back on and although the circle of friends becomes wider with all the new mothers, it is still as strong as ever and a wonderful safety net for all of us. I hope the new new years is filled with new blessings and continued strength for you and your family. Love to you. Robin
Peace to your heart...So many things to mke us sad, it is good to come here and share your sadness, we understand. Nora
Thinking of you with love, prayers, and hugs, Sharon
Ginger, we are here when you need us, my sweet friend. In the meantime, take a breather and a rest. Hugs, Belinda