and another thing

yesterday when I was with family friends, I noticed something

a therapist said to me a long time ago. "Sometimes", he said "we send

out messengers when we have bad feelings about ourselves or fears."

And so that energy 'sees' or elicits the kind of interaction we have

with others. This seemed exactly truth. I was so socially frightened

and fatigued that I think those feelings drew out the perceived attacks

when in fact, once I relaxed - things seemed loving and wonderful.

And again - when I put that perspective on things - for whatever

came my way I could instantly interpret in the positive light

of loving and nice.