angry

I am so mad, i want to call my H and tell him off. i want to tell him that he is stupid, every couple has problems, why does he have to be so extreame and want the whole marriage off, why do i care so much why cant just get my shit and leave!!! why cant i just say "i dont need this shit or any man" and feel it!!! i dont need him, i really dont i do things for him! why am i so stuck!! i say and say that i need to leave it in Gods hands but i dont! i start to then get all panicky and crazy. i still make me ill! i make me sick ugh!!!