Ambivalence

I awoke this morning with a sense of nothingness.  I am ambivalent.  I am afraid of ambivalence because it leaves me open to mood swings.  I don't know why I am this way.  It just seems if I don't wake up with a mind- set that what ever happens may change my mood.  I have never been able to just be ambivalent all day.
I was a little upset at my hubby last night.  After a weekend of drag  racing he didn't feel well last night and we didn't get any time together this weekend. I know I can't be mad, it's not his fault he got ill but I blame him for putting us "off" until tomorrow.  Well tomorrow is a dangerous place to live. I keep telling him that.  Maybe someday he will get it. 
Anyway,  in the mean time I will try to remain strong mentally.  I will try to tell myself it's me.  Somewhere in me there is something wrong.  Hopefully I can be positive instead of negative.