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I had a good night, and then came down to church to set up and conduct the preliminary part of the service but not all of it as I am having an mri this morning.
I started to reject the monastery this morning internally as in just thinking it was not for me. My mind started to spin with trepidation about where I would go, there’d be no one to care for me and I wish I had a solid sense of life.
But that thought of my of insecurity made me think about the human condition and that we all experience that sense of isolation, of insecurity, of not knowing how we would take care of life. Just that sense of weakness made me feel a sense of commonality. It made me realize that I’ve been fashioning things within myself to feel strong, value and a bit of omnipotence. It’s not fair to others. I’d like to feel dashing, debonair and I realize we’re all subject to the whims of life and trying to make it all happen and work.
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Maybe you were just anxious about the MRI? Worry can cause all sorts of internal trepidation. Hope the MRI turns out ok.
Thanks Becky!
I think we all worry about the future at times but we can't control the future because it has not yet arrived. We can only control the present which is where our power is. I highly recommend "the power of now"... hugs
Thanks! I love Eckhart Tolle
I sure do get worry and it sucks
Thanks for that Bob!
Sending a big hug...xo
Thanks Janet!! Xoxox
All valid worries and widely felt by many.
Hope the MRI procedure went well. Hugs.
Thanks Nikki!