Amazing

I managed a whole day without a journal entry.

Yesterday was hard but given a boost by a friend suggesting a job and the company saying they'd see my application and make a judgement, and then my friend saying he'd be in touch to support me.

Missing the family so much - I still love my wife and children, and this morning for no apparent reason at the supermarket I went to collect some strawberries and burst into tears. Why? The pain won't go away and I don't know how to address the past and put things right.

Nervous again today as drove out and felt good shopping and walking but felt depression descending as I drove back and I was right as a neighbour was watching me and then there were a couple of people watching me from that house as I came in with the shopping and the dog, I know they are trying to intimidate me and it's working well.