Am I crazy after six month I am flirting again.
It's been six months since my Smokey died. I feel like an evil woman flirting with a guy at Legends Bar. It has been on-going for awhile now. My brother Don and I went to Legends last night again flirting with this guy named Bill. This morning I felt so bad that I cried. I feel as if I were a very evil woman flirting with Bill. Smokey was the greatest love of my life. I never met anyone like him. Bill doesn't look like Smokey at all. Smokey was a brunette haired man going gray with the salt and pepper hair color when he died. Bill is blondish. Their birthdays are 3 days apart. How weird is that? I feel as if I am dishonering Smokey cause I am interested in Bill. How can that happen after six months? Bill has been separated from his wife for awhile but not divorced. What do you make of the entire thing? I want to be smart about these things. Bill's been the first man I am interested in after Smokey so I want to be cautious about the entire thing. I don't want to make any mistakes. I am not interested in a casual relationship and am a naturally born worrier. I chew things right down to the bone and into dust then put it in a blender again. I hate doing this thing like thought obsessing till it turns into dust. I know my brother Don and friend Carol both say to go with it. I do not have to ask them at all. Actually the whole things is pretty scary for me. I have been with one man for ten years. I am so out of the whole thing. Every thing about dating again is absolutely frightening for me. Has anyone gone through all this and any advice? It would be greatly appreciated.
Replies