Am I broke?

I'm sad. Atleast I think I'm sad. Honestly, I don't understand my own emotions anymore. I can help others with their problems, but I can't understand my own. It's pitiful. I wonder why it happened. Why did I shut off? I never feel truly sad anymore. The emotion is there, but somehow when it starts to come, I don't feel it. Something is wrong with my feelings. I think I might be broken. When my ex says things and I take it the wrong way, I don't cry anymore, not really. And anytime I do cry, I actually feel relieved. I hold on to whatever's making me cry & I let it out. I think over and over about what's bothering me and cry as long as I can, otherwise, I wont be able to for a while. I haven't cried in a few weeks, it feels like...or atleast I don't think I have. Even if I did, it wasn't a good cry. How do I feel? This question is somethinng I really can not answer anymore. What is wrong with me?