along the path of living

I woke this morning and went to work. Things went ok today, thankfully. 

I realized much of my reactions to others I need to own.

As well we are all owning and taking responsibly to a degree

of how we respond to our reactions. They can cause 'little mental storms'

or 'big mental storms' but in essence I am realizing those reactions are mine or ours

to catch...I was finding common ground with the others while working away

with them. I found that at times ocassionally someone would be 'spikey' but

I caught myself in thinking about how I was reacting to that...Could it have

just been a moment? Are some people having a bad day? Did I kind of react first

in a 'spikey' way myself that inspired their reaction? And some folks are just like that.

I found myself towards the end of the day feeling in the emotional context that

we're all working away together - and being considerate of each other and ourselves -

and dealing with those moments of dischord...so we're not alone in that :).

I came home from work - feeling a little cocky. But then I had deliveries in Silverlake

and then Venice and then came back home. I find myself more aware of how tired

I am having been awake since 300am this morning. Eventually I went to my bed.

So I am trying to sleep - and that engine within of wanting to feel connected

is bringing me to a new evening challenge. Of wanting to feel connected, of wanting

to be ok - and just along the path of living this is, I am realizing part of the way

the emotional water ebbs and flows. I reached out to my sister tonight who lives in London, UK.

We talked about things and she was so insightful. I am so grateful for the good things

in my life, it seems I am learning to step back and just appreciate the ocean's tides

as just being a natural part of coping, processing and living.