Alone Again (Dokken Song)

Well,, I was finally able to get back on here.Been havein problems with my account,not that I have anyone left on here to talk to anymore.Just like out in the real world, people move on and forget. As I look back at my own posts I realize my life never changes ,the problems just get worse or maybe its that I am getting older and just cant handle the shit anymore. I just really want a divorce, no more miserable,mean, abusive and self centered people filled with drama and hate in my life.I want a NEW BEGINNING! I want to focus on my health and well being and be strong and healthy enough to be there for my kids and grandson..I have been doing everything for so long all by myself anyways.My stress levels are through the roof and I have high blood pressure now along with chest pains off and on. My house is crumbling down around us and there is no money in site to fix anything.My grandson was diagnosed with Autism and at only three is getting worse in behavior.I Love him and my daughter so much and have been busy getting them moved into their own place where it will be safer and more room for my grandson.Then their is doctor appt.to be made and home schooling getting set up...ect....ect...ect..I am even dreaming about all this when I go to sleep.My oldest son still will not help with any of the finances even though he works full time and he will not move out..I try to help my family in anything they need but I am an empty shell I have nothing left..I just wanna get in my car and drive till I run outta gas ,which will probably only get me to the end of the street.I went to the grocery store last night ,shopped for about an hour only to get my credit card denied so left no food and embarrassed..I cant leave my situation because in the current place I live now I have 2 acres and been here for 11 years and only know me .Some have health issues.I have tried looking for a place to move that will allow me to have pets but no one wants to rent to you with this many.Some pets were abused and I cant take the chance of it happening again..I keep praying some one will just give us a chance with my pets....I am so alone and I don't wanna live like this anymore...Please if anyone reads this pray for my youngest son,myself and our beloved pets to get our new beginning.