Alone

Ive been with my husband for 20 years and been married for 10. I love him still, but he doesnt feel the same for me. The rejection is killing me and i have guilt for not getting help for my own issues and ended up pushing him away. Im scared to be alone and can barely sleep or eat. Ive read a few articles that said you can get sick, like have a heart attack or get cancer from all this stress. Not only that, my mother has cancer and my job is very stressful its been a rough year and ive hit rock bottom.