Almost there now.
I have sometime before class so I thought I would journal. I'm on campus at the computer lab. I have one class today and then I am done for the week since my mom and I are driving to Durango for my brother's graduation. I'm pretty excited. We are staying at the double tree hotel and bringing the dog along too. Luke is being presented with some sort of award on Friday and then the ceremony is on Saturday morning. I feel kinda bad that Luke is graduating before me. But I suppose I had a few more set backs than he did in college. My dad, step-mother, and step-brother are all coming, but separately from mom and I. I think that this time I am going to stick with mom. I always go to dad but he is choosing to bring his "family" with him so I don't want to be around that shit, it's embarrassing, Luke is more embarrassed about it than I am... and he does not have to live with the new extenuation to the Targos family.
I can't help but to think that she is going to run out on him. She is not even 40 yet and my dad is over 60. It just doesn't seem logical. I also hope that dad does not leave his estate to her. She is a horrible person, who I dislike very much. I don't like to talk about it too much, because it brings up bad memories. She is very abusive and passive aggressive. I don't know how my dad can live with such a cray person.
I am off of propranalol as of last week. I don't feel shaky so I guess I didn't really need that drug. I am going to fill all of my prescriptions today and I want to fill my xanax as a brand xanax instead of Alprozolam. It's 9:24am and my class is at 11:00am, so I still have some time to burn and I don't know what I should do.
I have to do something, I have a lot of energy, I think because of this trip, I am really excited about it. I have been wanting to get out of town and into the mountains for a long time now. Especially since my dad just went to Vegas with Chau and my mom goes to Crested Butte a lot and then she is going to Florida next Thursday to see my grandmother in the home they put her in.
I think I am going to go. I hope to journal before I leave for Durango, but I may be too busy to do that. If not I will journal after the trip.
So,
Goodnight moon.
I can't help but to think that she is going to run out on him. She is not even 40 yet and my dad is over 60. It just doesn't seem logical. I also hope that dad does not leave his estate to her. She is a horrible person, who I dislike very much. I don't like to talk about it too much, because it brings up bad memories. She is very abusive and passive aggressive. I don't know how my dad can live with such a cray person.
I am off of propranalol as of last week. I don't feel shaky so I guess I didn't really need that drug. I am going to fill all of my prescriptions today and I want to fill my xanax as a brand xanax instead of Alprozolam. It's 9:24am and my class is at 11:00am, so I still have some time to burn and I don't know what I should do.
I have to do something, I have a lot of energy, I think because of this trip, I am really excited about it. I have been wanting to get out of town and into the mountains for a long time now. Especially since my dad just went to Vegas with Chau and my mom goes to Crested Butte a lot and then she is going to Florida next Thursday to see my grandmother in the home they put her in.
I think I am going to go. I hope to journal before I leave for Durango, but I may be too busy to do that. If not I will journal after the trip.
So,
Goodnight moon.
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Have a safe trip and remember its all about your brother :) So try to block your Dads \"family\" out and make it about him and you\'ll have a great time.
u sound well,it makes me smile.ur energy and xcitment is high an it shows in ur writting.sweeetgreen is right it is all about ur brother.so really enjoy the time and if u do bump uglies with ur dads side be warm and loving just as u are.it will piss her off even more!O YE-A,U GOT IT!!!