Almost made it

Almost made through an entire day without a breakdown. I think meds need to be upped. Worked a long hard day today in order to try and keep my mind off things but towards the end I hit a major wall. I love this woman so much. It was really strange sleeping in a guest room. I suppose we're lucky to have the house that we do so that there can be some level of separation. I need some affection so bad. This hurts so much. I have little to no interaction with people other than my wife in the morning and evening and even that's weird. Being around people is hard. Faking smiles or interest in whatever they're saying. I need to be held.