Almost hit my original goal.

Once before I had a goal to quit purging, for 30 days.  I thought I'd never make it, and the furthest I got was 18 days.  But now I'm so close, if I make it through the weekend, I'll have hit 30 days!  It's crazy to realize how close I really am.. I didn't think I'd get this far, but I'm doing it.  I couldn't go back to that now, I really couldn't .. .I hated it so much. I really think I'm gonna make it this time.  I'm really working to change, I can't keep living like I did.  I knew the whole time I was destroying my body, but I couldn't  help it.  I thought I couldn't ever stop.  But now I have, and I don't plan on going back.  I can't let myself return to slowly killing myself on a daily basis in attempt to get to some unknown goal of thinness that is most likely impossible to achieve without killing myself.  It's not worth it.  I need to focus on being healthy, not thin.