Almost Gave In
I tossed it around yesterday for the better part of the day....to go or not to go to the casino. I even told my hubby that and but for the fact that I have banned myself from all the ones within any close proximity to my house, I really think I would have caved. I REALLY wanted to go gamble, mostly because I had a stressful week, and I just wanted to say screw it. I always thought if it came right down to it, I would not give in. I would have maybe if that roadblock of self banning wasnt there to stop me.
Also, at my GA meeting, one GA member who i really thought would NEVER gamble again, because she had been working the steps and i really thought she had her shit together, she gambled, and she had to give her 2 years up all because of a few minutes of fun.
I have people in my life that look up to me for being strong this long, and I dont want to let them down. Because if they see me say "Screw it", then they might think the same thing. and i dont want that to happen.
Anyway, thats what this weekend has been for me so far. Boring and Gamble Free!!!
Also, at my GA meeting, one GA member who i really thought would NEVER gamble again, because she had been working the steps and i really thought she had her shit together, she gambled, and she had to give her 2 years up all because of a few minutes of fun.
I have people in my life that look up to me for being strong this long, and I dont want to let them down. Because if they see me say "Screw it", then they might think the same thing. and i dont want that to happen.
Anyway, thats what this weekend has been for me so far. Boring and Gamble Free!!!
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Hey Lisa- glad to see you made the right decision stayed the course.
Boring days are tough, but you gotta work through them as you did.
Keep the faith and continue to be that good example!
Jay