ALL ALONE ON A MONDAY
well, i havent written in awhile and thats strange for me because writing is something i really enjoy..i try everyday to be so positive but i am really just crumbling inside and so very much lonely.....i have really enjoyed meeting so many wonderful people here on ds but i am beginning to think maybe i need to take a break from the site. somedays i just feel so lonely here also...at home i am surrounded by a whole family but i am still alone in my own personal hell. when the sun shines i feel guilty for not being happy and upbeat like everyone else....the dark dreary days fit better in my black hole of life....i am still staying up all night,i just have no interest in going to bed,i guess its easier to hide at night and forget the day ....well, i know none of this really makes sence tonight but my head is just a jumbled mess right now...no one really understands me and i am tired of acting like everything is okay when nothing in my life is ok.....
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