AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I woke up this morning and it was a dark morning, i lay in bed and said to myself what's the freakin point to get up, why am i trying, nothing feels good, nothing seems worth living for.  But once again, i get up and get on with my day like its just another day, and i'm just wondering how to get by without frustrating my husband and making things even  worse.   God i feel so lonely where do i go, all my friends and family are all in Canada, and i don't know what to do anymore, i can only write so much i can only distract myself so much, the pit of my stomach aches i feel sick everyday.