Agency - Anxiety and Avoiding Comparisons

Thinking about the ideas of taking care of all you're supposed to do, whether it's in your personal life at home or 

in my community of friends and family. When it comes down to being on my own at times

or more likely, more specifically, when I lay my head down to sleep I've a lot of anxiety.

I  do feel agency to create my own path - but I also am waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

guarded about it! I know when we make personal choices of a livelihood or vocation - there's no one size

fits all - and comparing doesn't make sense - you will make your own version of the life or the profession you pursue - 

you make your own version of it ! So I guess that being said I think life is just about having anxiety in it..and

managing it as best you can.

There's all sorts of worries to go round. Will I make rent, cover bills, keep a tidy home,

do a good job at work, save money, be good to my family and friends... I guess we all need to check in with all

that stuff on a daily basis but the anxiousness or maybe the alertness to that....... clouds the path? or the life?

I feel grasshopper is asking a question here.. :-)

Again maybe as I live alone I have to answer questions that would be automatically answered in couplehood.

Got to be radical and try new things.

I also heard one guy talk about his choices in life as being oriented to 'the other' by engendering in his mind's eye

his sense of his own example he was setting to young people who we see in his achievement the persistence and dedication it motivated him to show them that he

walked one step at a time down the road of experience and achievement. So with that he was saying "You could do it too"

I also heard another fellow talk about his life was in orientation to the other through helping immigrants and refugees.

I don't know, I guess that's all a personal choice - but I bet a lot of it is really gratifying and helps you sleep at night.

Part of me wants success...but what does that mean to me? :)