Again I need to learn this system

Well I'm up and it is not late but I wanted to write down my feelings.

I am anxious, I am all over the place. I am not feeling like I am doing well with my stress management. I feel like Im faking the funk. I dont know, I cannot let things get to me but they are. I am overwhelmed with my daughter going to college and I not being able to afford the payments.

I miss my mother and all mothers that are gone. Mrs. Gunter, Mrs. Meus and anyone else that can help me with my feelings.

I know that I rely on humans to "help" me but I like to Hear feedback. Good news I received a check for 125 out of the blue, this will help with my college payment.

I am not sure if I mentioned that I am going back to school in Aug. I am finishing up my Business degree. I feel overwhelmed with that too, but not as much as my daughter's payment. I need to squeeze out 700 from my check.

I need to rely on the Lord for my blessings. I am a Christian and I know that my faith does not have to be 100% but I need to try to lean on the Lord for my worries, concerns and anxiety. It works for me, I dont know maybe it is the fact that my daughter is going to college. I thought I was ok with the idea. I dont seem sad about it, she is a loner anyway, so I barely see her when she is here. Also, I dont want her to feel bad about going away to college. I want her to get the college experience. I believe she will do very well, she is not like the boys. She is mini-me.

Also, I need to go back to reading my Bible and relaxing and relying on the Word of the Lord.

I need it ALL, honestly, Im a like depressed, I think but I cannot gage it. Im sad but I can go to work and perform my parental duties. I feel like woo is me all the time and my patience is short. , it sounds like PMS, but it is not. I know tht Im stressed bc my memory is gone, my blood pressure is too high and I just know that I am. I cannot concentrate, I am not accomplishing things like I used to, I am withdrawn bc I dont want to talk plus no one calls me. Most of the time, all I think about is money. Money for her school, supplies, her life and thingslike that. I know what it is like when you dont have a lot and I dont want her to miss out on things just because she does not come from money.

Anyway, that is on my mind