after work today...it's now my weekend

I came home from work today. It's the start of my weekend.

I didn't really have much planned - but I made lunch and then I put

on load of laundry (cleaning the week's work of clothing) and then I 

went over to the Trader Joe's and bought some cookies and a bottle of Prosecco.

I didn't really want it all that much - it just seemed a thing to do for weekend's 

tribute.

I kind of held my head in my hands that it was another day - I just kind of

thought about things - how I kind of didn't have the mojo to fight for a plan of action.

I wasn't a total sloth - I took care of the laundry and dishes and got the mail and went through

it. Just from my day's kind of mood and vibe and input, came the notion which is that we each of us has to fight for

our lives. We can't wait to be saved. That might sound a bit harsh but the nugget I am seeing is that

we need to create our success/safety/survival in any which way we can..Even if we have moments of misgiving and tentativeness,

we all have that at certain moments but we can't give up in our pursuit of being self

responsible or even self promoting in our will's direction. We sure can 'get up to' a lot of distracting and numbing out

activities that cause our day's time to blurr into one mass of passing the time and I guess there's nothing

wrong with that, I just know that I've got more that I'd like to do god willing. Not getting down on myself, just kind

of reflecting and scribbling a bit.