admiration

I am reminded of what arfie once said about admiring the catholic nuns she worked

alongside. I think that's what you said Arfie? I really admired that comment in you Arfie - just by

saying it.

I find myself uncovering a kind of up till now unconscious admiration I have had for the monastics

I work and live with. There's something of such a dedication, and a seeming sense of

always knowing what to do - and not a moment's hesitation to do the work that needs to be done.

I see that in my therapist too - a doer of good works - my family members and friends - and the CL's here. I would aspire to be so consistent and regular

as that - but I suppose I am also idealizing things. I know I have to think of my own individual 'take'

on how the monastic life - or just the responsible life - is manifesting in me. I do some good works

I am hoping and I think that I just have to embrace what I am going for here (and become understanding of

it) - and the way I am going about it.

It really is like a surfacing of truth on the water's surface bubbling up. My illness can make me skittish at times - but I know

and love the consistency I see in people at that is my aspiration to be as that in my life. 

I also know that those who do great things are to be acknowledged! But alongside that - their 

glory is not about blocking the sun on me or others - if that makes sense- it's all about the glory

of that virtue - and we each have 'some of that' to offer in a good day's work. :) Peace and have a good night!!