Adjustments

Yesterday I had a good day, and i was hoping that i could maybe have two days in a row in which they were good.  But i guess those days are still yet to come, I woke up this morning with a dream that made me feel terrible, it was about me working at a job and everyone was trying to sabatoge me, and played mean jokes and mean jokes and were trying to get me to quit or get fireed they called me mean names.  I woke up feeling like a worthless piece of shit.  And even though it was just a dream my feelings felt like they were so hurt.  And i couldn't shake the feeling of worthlessness and just feeling down. It brought me back to my childhood where that is what  i felt i was just worthless, didn't know my place in my family.  Why can we just have one thing come up and deal with that and then go to the next thing on my list, instead of trying to figure out how to deal with one thing while 6 million things always lurking.