addicted to self injury
I remember what it was like when I felt like this before I would self harm in various ways and I really miss the rush that I would get from doing those things. Even the rush from hiding those things from others (even though it is really stressful while you are close to getting caught you get a rush of relief after that i love)
The things that I would do to self harm were:
-cut (which I continue to do)
-burn (on occasion)
-anorexia
-bulimia
-on purpose "accidents"
I need to feel something and I am lost I really am considering picking up on some of these habits again (probably all of them to be honest) It may sound weird but I really do think I am addicted to self harm. Atleast I can admit it. But that doesn't mean I am going to stop. I like it. No matter how bad it may sound, I like it, it is something that I can control.
Oh yeah, lets not forget the fact that I either always sleep or never do. Literally.
I am working up the courage to tell the guy I am with how severe this really is, and I am trying to find the right way to do it. I mean how are you even supposed to do that? Oh well, I will find a way. Hopefully.
Ughh. Ohh well, its life. And it goes on, no matter how crazy, hectic, insane, inhumanem and cruel it may be.
The things that I would do to self harm were:
-cut (which I continue to do)
-burn (on occasion)
-anorexia
-bulimia
-on purpose "accidents"
I need to feel something and I am lost I really am considering picking up on some of these habits again (probably all of them to be honest) It may sound weird but I really do think I am addicted to self harm. Atleast I can admit it. But that doesn't mean I am going to stop. I like it. No matter how bad it may sound, I like it, it is something that I can control.
Oh yeah, lets not forget the fact that I either always sleep or never do. Literally.
I am working up the courage to tell the guy I am with how severe this really is, and I am trying to find the right way to do it. I mean how are you even supposed to do that? Oh well, I will find a way. Hopefully.
Ughh. Ohh well, its life. And it goes on, no matter how crazy, hectic, insane, inhumanem and cruel it may be.
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I know this is more personal than posting on the main board but you might consider posting something about self-harm and your depression. You need some support and love. Are you getting any therapy? I am no doctor but this falls under a mood disorder. I have one and have read alot about them. You can be helped with this. You are too young to have to be dealing with this much. Many hugs to you. Keep writing. That is one thing among many that can help. Message me anything. Really.