Ache & in pain for the loss of my husband

I still ache and am in pain for the loss of my husband Smokey.  It's been just over 3 months as he passed away on Nov. 15, 2009 a date I will never ever forget as it is etched in my memory banks permanently.  The loss was absolutely devastating to me.  At times I did not know if I could continue on any more.  Even now I wake up and wonder what is the point of even getting out of bed as there is no Smokey.  I go to bed and wonder why as there is no Smokey.  At times I wonder how I can even get thru the day as there is no Smokey.  What is the point?  It all seems useless and futile to even try.  In the future, I would want to find another love again.  What is the point?  He won't be Smokey.  It all seems full of vanity and vexation of soul and spirit.  What is the point?