accepting the whole package

I went to work this morning, and experience a lot of upheaval emotionally.

Just the rise and fall of feelings, chaos, disorganization and varying feelings.

I stayed the course - did the work well and as well as I could. And as I was working I just decided

or wondered if others experienced this kind of internal chaotic stuff as well.

Rather than feel like thrown off my course of action by it - I decided instead to 

gather myself and get back to the work at hand, think about what needed to get done

and just do it...and the focus came back to me.

I liked this idea of just accepting the whole package - that it's not going to be

a straight line from here to there - and likewise I thought about something my friend

the Abbess once said to me about friendship - the ups and downs - she's "grateful for all of it."

I came home- and got ready for the barber appointment I had and then went to the Emil's

about 10 minutes before to get a snack and coffee for while I waited. It was nice.

My hairs were cut - well - and I am happy.. hehe - and I was just kind of nursing some hurt 

I felt about something - and I realized here too! On my own - I am determining my course of action

because of some hurt I am feeling rather than seeing it as part of my experience, the hurt is commanding

my existence and path of action! Oh no I say! Maybe here too I will look at the whole picture and accepting it

too. That way I can see what's driving me! eh? :)

Ok gotta meet with my Doc now.

peace and hugs! I'll be driving all over LA today and I'll get home probably around

300p or so.