acceptance yields fruit
....was at work today, and pushed myself through the day.
I felt a lot of acceptance for where I am, what I am doing and just about life.
Yesterday's journal taught me about maturity for dealing with the good days
and bad days.
Now that I am back here at the house I am looking at options for work for me.
So often while healing, I tried to self sooth - but I don't need that now.
I have the tv going - and I am writing this journal - but I am looking for somewhere to put
myself to work.
I don't always know what i want to do - but I do know that I have a decent work
ethic that will serve me when I push through the 'getting up to speed' part of learning a new job.
I am pretty easy going - and will go with the flow of things at work.
Anyways, I need to cogitate about it.
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I want my work to be something that I enjoy
but also to be something I can do -
and something that will make me money
I notice as I work that I like to have the quality of my work speak for me.
It shows my dedication - and devotion and capacity
and I think like anything you do - there will be good days of liking
what you do - and then days where you wish you could do something else
and aspects that you don't like so much.
man was I tired at the start of work today.
So there's no stepping into a picture.
and I seem to have no imagination for how to think
about what I want to do for work.
and I am starting to think about the vertical relationships if that is the term
of having a business degree and running the business per it's structure.
I think I can do more than a clerical job. Need to find credentials that can
emblematize and support this
as I watch tv and as I looked at job postings I got kind of excited about getting to work..
and I wondered what aspect of society I could join up with - team up
I took a break and started to get kind of manic. So much energy I thought I was going to pop.
I took a drive and got a Starbucks. Listening to an old recording "Victor/Victoria." I am not gonna
focus on the feeling or red lightening but rather I am going to enjoy this music - be constructive.
Maybe working at the market is all I can do? Or maybe I just need to learn to manage in a different way once I transition to another work place.
You have a good, positive sense of yourself. A good work ethic is always good.
thanks becky!!