a worried day
I went to work this morning. Then came home, ate lunch and then went to my therapy appointment at 11am.
I was kind of nervous in the waiting room of therapy - and then nervous in the session as well.
She asked me what that was about and I couldn't really say why..?
My hands were shaking and I just couldn't let go...I kind of had some self acceptance about it,
still feeling nervous though and I kind of felt her impatience with me - could that idea have just been a projection
of my worry? - even so, I am thinking "we all have our off days"? and I thought maybe I was off and that's ok- and maybe she was off too and that's ok.
I have been kind of worried here at home too but I think I just need to reclaim myself and my day - being with others
and then being alone - is a tough transition sometimes... for me.. big time.
One bit of wisdom that she shared which I liked today is that when I told her that sometimes I have a drink, and she joked she's not a catholic priest (hehe) but she also wisely said "We all have things in our lives that we do but realize we ought to watch an eye on otherwise it will get out of control." .........loved the calm voice of wisdom!!!
I hope you guys are doing ok and that you have a good weekend!
Sending good wishes, peace and good kharma,
M
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When I have doubts about whether I am projecting or getting an accurate read, I ask whenever possible, especially if I know and trust the person in question. Why guess? I tend to drive myself crazier with that particular guessing game.
On the position of catholic priests and drinking. . . You do know what is in that sacramental wine cup, don't ya? Did you know the Catholic church was legally sanctioned to continue using wine during the alcohol prohibition? Religious freedom and all that Constitutional hype.
Thanks arfie....that's really funny about the Church. :)
I agree with arfie you should talk to your therapist about your concern that she was impatient with you. I've done that before and it never was as bad as I thought it would be. It was usually just me being over sensitive at the moment.
I'm glad that you were able to see your therapist and vent how you're feeling sweetie.... I agree to ask as well..... How did you feel after the session?.....xo
I just felt like "oh well" not a great day...but I tend to spin about things, but I will just call her later. I know she's there for me.