A whole month gone by???
Damn, a month, unbelievable. How time flies aye? And what have I done? Hmm..one thing i havent done, which i am VERY proud of me for, i have not smoked a cig!!! Today will be day 76!! Woohooo!!
I have done alot of things...laugh, cry, yell, hug, swim, walk...the norm stuff i suppose, but the thing i have done the most is sit or walk or lay...in silence. I dont know what to say...to anyone. Dont have anything to say of interest to anyone....feel alone in my brain..ug. Put on a smile, everything is fine. Just dont know how to explain how i feel..not even to myself. Feel my family is bored with me, cant blame em though...i am too. Puttin back on weight, which also saddens me...nothing excessive, just too much for me to feel comfortable. Always tell myself at night...wake up in a good mood, excercise, walk the dog, enjoy the day. Why doesnt it happen? I dont do it. Why? I dont know...my mind feels in a funk and i dont know how to jumpstart it...... stomache is growling=lunchtime........
The sooner this shit passes...the better damnit....
I have done alot of things...laugh, cry, yell, hug, swim, walk...the norm stuff i suppose, but the thing i have done the most is sit or walk or lay...in silence. I dont know what to say...to anyone. Dont have anything to say of interest to anyone....feel alone in my brain..ug. Put on a smile, everything is fine. Just dont know how to explain how i feel..not even to myself. Feel my family is bored with me, cant blame em though...i am too. Puttin back on weight, which also saddens me...nothing excessive, just too much for me to feel comfortable. Always tell myself at night...wake up in a good mood, excercise, walk the dog, enjoy the day. Why doesnt it happen? I dont do it. Why? I dont know...my mind feels in a funk and i dont know how to jumpstart it...... stomache is growling=lunchtime........
The sooner this shit passes...the better damnit....
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